It's Comment Time...

If you've never commented on here before, now's the time.
For this post... I'm just posting questions.
I've been doing a lot of self examination today, and wanted your input.
More honesty...for the last 6 months my husband and I both have been in a holding pattern. We did REALLY well in the first 6 months. I lost close to 60 lbs and he lost 40ish. THAT is pretty rockstar!!! BUT... I've been gaining and losing the same 5-10 lbs SINCE THEN!!!
People have told me that it's just muscle gain (Ummm CRAP) or that my body is changing even though the scale isn't (ok, I'll take a little of that) OR... the most ridiculous one... I've hit a plateau!!!! Ummm NO... full on crap! I'm 300lbs, you don't hit plateaus when you are 300 lbs. I have far too much weight to lose off of my 5'6" body to say I've hit a plateau. AND even more ridiculous... there is NO way that both Chris and I hit the same plateau at the same time.
NOPE...we eat crap and we use excuses to not go to the gym.
That's are plateau.
So... trying to get back in it adn be in it and not fall out of it.

Here are my questions for you...
What do you do when it's going well? How do you keep yourself going?
What do you do when life gets crazy? How do you keep yourself going?
Do you use rewards? Do you not need them?
What do you do when you go out to eat?
How often do you go out to eat?
and my most serious question....
What do you do when you just don't WANT to? Simple as that. I sometimes just don't want to.

ok, last question...
Do you ever have moments that you're sitting on the couch instead of going to the gym or eating something that you KNOW you shouldn't have (ahem, Texas Roadhouse buns-did you know that they have 227 cals and that's WITHOUT the butter?) and you just don't care.. you know you should but you don't?

OK, bring on the comments. :)

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If I'm REALLY honest...

So this morning I was super crabby because I weighed myself and I was UP THREE POUNDS!!!! We've been a little bit of slackers for the last month with all that has gone on. My father in law passed away unexpectedly in June and we had a hard time getting back in it. We worked out and ate well but it was sporatic. BUT...this has been an awesome week! We've worked out every day except for Wednesday and ate really healthy. When I say we worked out, it wasn't some putsy workout just to log the time either. Each day I walked at least 45 minutes at a very brisk pace as it's part of our New Leaf training that we signed up for and never really committed to. Tuesday I worked out with my trainer Tahna and lets just say it was BRUTAL!!! I am just over the soreness today! Then last night I did a full 5K on the treadmill. I would say it was a pretty solid week for me. AND CONSISTENT which is our new word in our home. We also ate very healthy... OR SO I THOUGHT!!!

Somewhere along the line this year I've taught myself that if I don't write it down, it didn't happen. I became SO attached to my food journal, that I would write down everything religiously. But.. if I had a little chocolate here or there, I'd leave it off. No need to write it down, it was LITTLE. So then that grew to just skipping writing it down all together. So during the last month I just haven't been writing down my food! WHEN did that happen? AND then that gave me the excuse to eat whatever I wanted.

So on the way to work this morning I was thinking about my week and trying to figure out how in the world I would have gained three lbs! It shouldn't have happened, it's not fair, none of this is worth it if I'm working so hard and still GAINING weight! I was running through my brain about what I was doing when we were losing weight quickly and how is it different... NOTHING I could come up with NOTHING... but then I REMEMBERED. Seriously I think I had blanked it out... We had Texas Roadhouse on Monday for supper and Chinese buffet on Wednesday for lunch. Could those two meals seriously have ruined ALL of my work? YEP! it DID! I'm sure of it! I had THREE buns at Texas Roadhouse with cinnamon and sugar butter on them AND we had the mini cactus blossum. I'm pretty sure to, that I ate more than my share.

HOW RIDICULOUS! Those two places are NOT worth being fat forever! They aren't. I also can't believe that I was getting SO used to ignoring what I was eating. Kind of a big smack in the head for me today I think.

Now.. I'm a religious logger of food. Every single bite. Every sweet little chocolate chip that passes these lips is getting written down AND logged into fitday.com!!!! NO more pretending. It's time to get real again. No more buns, no more cactus blossums, no more chinese buffet. I'm working far to hard to ruin all this for a BUN!!!! ugh!

Here we go.... Feel free to ask me at any time what the last thing I ate was. I commit to you to being 100% honest.
:)

Owing You An Update...

Sorry for no posts recently...it's just SO hard to fit everything I want to do in. I guess that's a really good thing as compared to a year ago when I would go home to sit on the couch to watch TV and eat. I think that I just have SO much more energy and like Jenna said in her comment on my last post...it happened so slowly that I didn't even realize it. What a great thing!

Normally when I don't blog for a while it's a sign that I'm not doing super well, I have nothing great to report, and there isn't much good going on in my head so no great revelations happening. So... I don't blog. But lately it's a little different. I'm doing ok. I'm steady. Not moving mountains, but steady.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about "wanting" in a couple of different ways. Why do I want to be thin and healthy and why do I NOT want to work out. Yep, I'm confessing it. I do NOT want to do the work to get what I want. So I've been trying to figure that one out. I DO workout and I DO eat healthy, but if I'm being really honest I don't WANT to. Lot's of my workouts these days are complete drudgery. The only one's I really enjoy are the times I am with my trainer Tahna. SHE is amazing and her energy is SO contagious. I really feel like she could tell me to climb a mountain and if she says I can do it, I'll be at the top in no time. I'm having a hard time however finding that in myself.

What do you do to stay motivated? And is motivation really important? How do you stick with it when it's really NOT something you enjoy all the time. Do you think my enjoyment of working out will come back? (I used to enjoy it a LOT more...) Thoughts?

OH MY GOSH!!!

So... I just realized today is my ANNIVERSARY!!! My anniversary of not drinking pop OR eating fast food!!! ONE ENTIRE YEAR POP AND FAST FOOD FREE!!!!
HOLY COW!!!
AND it's my year anniversary of working with Tahna!
THANKS TAHNA!!!
ONE year down...more to go!

Sore muscles and determination!!!

Checking back in...Even though I haven't been blogging...life is rolling on as normal. No huge unplanned food catastrophe's, but not 100% on plan as it was just my BIRTHDAY!!! YAY So there was a little cake, a little fogo de chau, a little cheesecake at fogo de chau, and a little bit of some other stuff. BUT...There was minimal damage done.

I think it was actually a good thing to have a bit of a break and just "be." I still haven't mastered how to BE the new person I am ALL the time 100% and sometimes it just gets to be overwhelming! So... it was a break I needed and now it's over.

I worked out with Tahna last night. She KICKED my bootie!!! HOLY COW!!! I went in knowing it was going to be pretty bad since I hadn't really worked out in 4 days and had been pretty free with what I was eating. BUT... I texted her at about noon and asked for an extra hard workout. It was going to be brutal anyway, so why not make it worth while! Well, she brought it! There was lots of kickboxing, lunges, and squats, oh... and the lunges and squats were with kettle bells. I followed her workout up with a 45 minute one of my own-the New leaf Zone workout for last night. I made it through, could barely sleep from my sore muscles, but I feel GOOD!!! I feel alive and strong and can't wait to get back there tonight. Today is supposed to be my day off, but I've just had several days off... so it's ON for tonight!

Also, it's only good food for me today. We do treats at work for our birthday. The person whose birthday before yours brings treats for you. So.. my dear friend Heather is going to bring ice cream treats... I specifically requested Klondike Slim a Bear treats... they are still a treat, but with a fraction of the calories and sugar of other crazy stuff!!! Giving myself a pat on the back for picking something everyone can enjoy and I can still eat. Usually we have donuts!!!!

Have a great day...and do something healthy for yourself today!!!