Friday, July 24, 2009

If I'm REALLY honest...

So this morning I was super crabby because I weighed myself and I was UP THREE POUNDS!!!! We've been a little bit of slackers for the last month with all that has gone on. My father in law passed away unexpectedly in June and we had a hard time getting back in it. We worked out and ate well but it was sporatic. BUT...this has been an awesome week! We've worked out every day except for Wednesday and ate really healthy. When I say we worked out, it wasn't some putsy workout just to log the time either. Each day I walked at least 45 minutes at a very brisk pace as it's part of our New Leaf training that we signed up for and never really committed to. Tuesday I worked out with my trainer Tahna and lets just say it was BRUTAL!!! I am just over the soreness today! Then last night I did a full 5K on the treadmill. I would say it was a pretty solid week for me. AND CONSISTENT which is our new word in our home. We also ate very healthy... OR SO I THOUGHT!!!

Somewhere along the line this year I've taught myself that if I don't write it down, it didn't happen. I became SO attached to my food journal, that I would write down everything religiously. But.. if I had a little chocolate here or there, I'd leave it off. No need to write it down, it was LITTLE. So then that grew to just skipping writing it down all together. So during the last month I just haven't been writing down my food! WHEN did that happen? AND then that gave me the excuse to eat whatever I wanted.

So on the way to work this morning I was thinking about my week and trying to figure out how in the world I would have gained three lbs! It shouldn't have happened, it's not fair, none of this is worth it if I'm working so hard and still GAINING weight! I was running through my brain about what I was doing when we were losing weight quickly and how is it different... NOTHING I could come up with NOTHING... but then I REMEMBERED. Seriously I think I had blanked it out... We had Texas Roadhouse on Monday for supper and Chinese buffet on Wednesday for lunch. Could those two meals seriously have ruined ALL of my work? YEP! it DID! I'm sure of it! I had THREE buns at Texas Roadhouse with cinnamon and sugar butter on them AND we had the mini cactus blossum. I'm pretty sure to, that I ate more than my share.

HOW RIDICULOUS! Those two places are NOT worth being fat forever! They aren't. I also can't believe that I was getting SO used to ignoring what I was eating. Kind of a big smack in the head for me today I think.

Now.. I'm a religious logger of food. Every single bite. Every sweet little chocolate chip that passes these lips is getting written down AND logged into!!!! NO more pretending. It's time to get real again. No more buns, no more cactus blossums, no more chinese buffet. I'm working far to hard to ruin all this for a BUN!!!! ugh!

Here we go.... Feel free to ask me at any time what the last thing I ate was. I commit to you to being 100% honest.


  1. Great reflection! Isn't it funny how easily our old ways of allowing us to think "oh one dinner out won't derail me" or "but I'm so busy & can't work out today."

    Here's the one comment I repeat to myself every time I get a craving for a super yummy restaurant (in my old way of eating anyways)

    "Stop being a moron and start getting skinny! If you can't take one more day of self-loathing, your ready to hear the truth: You cannot keep shoveling the same crap into your mouth every day and expect to loose weight."
    - from book called Skinny Bitch

  2. It is very easy for me to "forget" the stuff that I shouldn't have had if I don't write it down every day.
    In the beginning I was writing throughout the day but now I'm writing maybe 1x a day or every other day. I'm also doing some selective omitting the Snickers and Starbucks frap from Tuesday!
    I need a dose of honesty too, cause at this rate I'm consuming more calories than I realize and the scale will start creeping in the wrong direction.
    And the TRUTH shall set you free! Time to step into the light and live honestly by recording EVERYthing I eat. Its the only way to prevent the "crap" from getting into my mouth so that it can no longer pitch a tent on my upper arms.